Dispatches from Quarantine:
Young People on Covid-19
Anonymous
Friday, May 8, 2020
The last time I went outside was yesterday. I try to take a walk with my dogs every day but sometimes I don’t feel like it. Every time I take a walk, though, there are a lot of other people walking their dogs or working in the garden. Honestly, I feel like my whole world is different and it’s not going to change. Along with being in quarantine and having the stress of not seeing my friends or family, and [attending] school, I’ve had a lot of personal issues come up and it has made me depressed. I feel like my whole world is falling apart and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. I haven’t talked to any of my friends from school and I don’t plan to. It just doesn’t bother me which is upsetting. I feel weak and powerless. My “schoolwork” has fallen behind and my grades have dropped and I don't even really care. Which is weird for me. I hope that getting out of quarantine will fix everything, but I’m honestly not sure that it will. I hate doing the work for school because it either doesn’t make any sense or it’s random and has nothing to do with school or what’s going on in the world.
It sucks being a teenager but being a teenager stuck inside all day doing dumb schoolwork, not being able to talk to your friends and go to school and do what you need to do, sucks even worse. I feel at a loss. I feel alone. I feel numb. I feel powerless. More than I did before. I’ve tried to pick up hobbies to get my mind off of what’s going on but I get bored of them quickly and I stop. I’ve started baking a lot more but I feel too self-conscious to eat it so I just give it to my family.
We’ve all been spending more time with my little brother because he just got out of the hospital. I feel so guilty for feeling this way, and I try to distract myself until it goes away, but just doesn’t work. My world is falling apart, but I know it’ll be okay because I’ve done this before.
